It requires work & compromise to maintain a good relationship.

I love this list of proverbs:

Why is it that we don't always recognize the moment love begins, but we always recognize the moment it ends?

You will never know true happiness until you have truly loved, and you will never understand what pain really is until you have lost it.
Love is like the truth, sometimes it prevails, sometimes it hurts.
If you have it [love], you don't need to have anything else, and if you don't have it, it doesn't matter much what else you have.
There is only one kind of love, but there are a thousand imitations.
Of all pains, the greatest pain,
Is to love, and to love in vain.
Loneliness and the feeling of being unwanted is the most terrible.
To fall in love is awfully simple; to fall out of love is simply awful.
The pain of love is the pain of being alive. It is a perpetual wound.
Love is the wisdom of the fool and the folly of the wise.
Love is like quicksilver in the hand. Leave the fingers open and it stays. Clutch it, and it darts away.

It is best to love wisely, no doubt; but to love foolishly is better than not to be able to love at all.

There's this place in me where your fingerprints still rest, your kisses still linger, and your whispers softly echo. It's the place where a part of you will forever be a part of me.

The greatest thing you'll ever learn, Is to love and be loved in return.

Time is too slow for those who wait, too swift for those who fear, too long for those who grieve, too short for those who rejoice, but for those who love, time is eternity.

Anyone can be passionate, but it takes real lovers to be silly.

True love has no ending.

"It's impossible to find another behalf like you."

Hello babies(: Sorry for not blogging ytd. I was damn faitue after a long run of 11km at Macritchie reservoir park._. Whatever way of spelling ~ LOL. & now, my whole body is suffering from muscle aches. Alrights, I was rotting at home the whole day & had a nice conversation wif mommy manipulating her to go out wif me. But she had to look after clothes, cause it might rain. So, went down to NTUC to get some things for me which is good for my digestion. I was purging consecutive 4times today. Got fed up actually. Then daddy talked to me about this, I got petrified when he says.. ): But neverminds, he was actually just scaring me ! Afterall, daddy did that is for my own good. Gave him a hug, I love you daddy & mommy:D Daddy said wanted to bring mommy & me go orchard tmrw. Hopefully it works, cause daddy is having teeth operation tmrw): Daddy, everything's gonna be fine(: Love you ! Beloved one, I'm sorry.. I love you(: He said this to me: "Baby . Don worry abt anything . Just remember that no matter wher my princess go the prince will always follow till the end . Through thick or thin . Happy or sad . Sick or healthy . I will always be by your side to fight together . I love you .! Muacks .!" Hehe:D I'm so elated right now. Alrights, stop here. Daddy's gonna bring us for breakfast at 6:30am._. LOL. Byes(:

I have never met a person whose greatest need

was anything other than real, unconditional love.
There is no mistaking love.
It is the common fiber of life,
the flame of that heats my soul,
energises my spirit and supplies passion to my live.
I stay intoxicated because of the love & security,
everything thats inside of you that you've given me.
Sarang hey, I love you..

Heeyer ! 2days never update liao le._. So sian. I'm back ok:D Basically ytd, it was rather jollity baking cakes wif mommy & daddy. & had a heart-to-heart talk wif mommy, it's actually a very devastating conversation): & also, they know about my health condition. Had heart-to-talk wif my guest at home cause she's a nurse, everyone hopes that my health will be stabilise asap even beloved shed tears for me): But up till now, thr is no improvement.. So just hope everything's fine ?.. Whatever shit. Went over to my sister's house, had dinner tgt. Humorous jokes from daddy:D Anyways, house warming at my sister's house next saturday I'm looking forward to it. Today, went out:D Back home sumptous dinner. Tmrw will be going to mount faber to exercise wif mommy & daddy la ! Whees ~ Stay tune for tmrw's post:D Bye.

“Love is the condition in which the happiness of another person is essential to your own.

“Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart.”

Time flies. Supposingly to meet beloved during the noon, but broke out a nasty controversy. Ended up getting hurt. Down wif flu, my head is a whirl now.. Goodness shit. ARGH ! Tmrw dad's gonna be at home, this is effing tedious._. Anyways, no matter what I'm gonna meet beloved tmrw understand whatever circumstances:D Just talked to Trenna darling online, effing elated. Even though it's just for awhile. I hope Trenna are doing fine there:D Come back fast fast okays ?

As I look back on all that's happened..

how time flies that make ppl change.

there were times when we dreamed together,

when we laughed and cried together.

As I look back on those days,

I realise how much I truly miss you,

and how much I truly love you.

The past may be gone forever..

and whatever the future holds,

our todays make the memories of tomorrow.

A part of you has grown in me.

And so you see,

it's you and me together forever and never apart,

maybe in distance, but never in heart.

Fighting to make the mirror happy.
"I thought I could be strong, but it's killing me.."

I left my computer on for 2 consecutive days already-.-' I was too fatigue, slept & forgotten to switch off my computer. LOL. Alrights, I've not been out that often I was freaking lazy. Laughs:D Anyways, I'm looking forward to see my beloved tmrw:D Yayness. It's been so long since I've saw him): I've been considering to see a docter asap.. Phew ! Hopefully I can recover ? Laughs:D

You never lose by loving.
You always lose by holding back.

If I had just one more day..
"Happiness resides not in posessions and not in gold;
the feeling of happiness dwells in the soul."

Ytd's play was rather appealing(: Reach-ed home, got scolded by dad. It was obnoxious that I raised my voice today._. Fuck it. Anyways, I miss Trenna Koh ! Today was their depart to Japan. I hope they are well as soon as they get thr(: I'm in a glum mood right now): Damn lethargic. I don't know what should I do..

Sometimes I wanna call you,
but I know you won't be there.
Some days I feel broke inside,
but I won't admit.
Sometimes I just wanna hide,
cause it's you I miss..

Alrights, my cut is healing soon:D Thank god. But it swell up, it's kinda painful. Neverminds, it's gonna heal anyways. Whoo ~ Excessive exercise today wif mommy & daddy for 5hours, went to mount faber & jog. Haha, it was rather jollity wif 'em. Cause I can joke ard wif daddy wif some slingish workout:D Laughed rather hard. HAHA ! Yeaps, so walk to Alexandra road to have our breakfast. Dangs ! I totally became an abhorrent glutton, I eat excessively. Ate mee kia, then eat malay rice, hot milk tea, sugarcane drink, malay cakes & 3 subway cookies. & I nearly spew at the shopping center, consecutively I vomited 5times today): It's rather awful.. Out tmrw, back home & get ready to go to substation for baby's play(: HAHA ! Can't wait for the appealing performance:D Whees ~ Maybe I'm not gonna eat for 2weeks ? Perhaps ?(:

How's life to be like to be just skins & bones ?
It's rather appalling,
that you're actually suffering one of the illness.
With swollen cheeks, which is noticeable.
Teeth marks at the back of your hands.
There seems to be too much..
cruel symptoms to be agonising in.
God, please help me):

ANOREXIA NERVOSA:

Anorexia nervosa is a type of eating disorder. People who have anorexia have an intense fear of gaining weight. They severely limit the amount of food they eat and can become dangerously thin.

Anorexia affects both the body and the mind. It may start as dieting, but it gets out of control. You think about food, dieting, and weight all the time. You have a distorted body image. Other people say you are too thin, but when you look in the mirror, you see a fat person.

Anorexia usually starts in the teen years. Early treatment can be very effective. But, if not treated early, anorexia can become a lifelong problem. Untreated anorexia can lead to starvation and serious health problems, such as bone thinning (osteoporosis), kidney damage, and heart problems. Some people die from these problems.

SYMPTONS:

Weigh much less than is healthy or normal.
Are very afraid of gaining weight.
Refuse to stay at a normal weight.
Think they are overweight even when they are very thin.
Their lives become focused on controlling their weight. They may:
Obsess about food, weight, and dieting.
Strictly limit their food intake. For example, they may limit themselves to just a few hundred calories a day or refuse to eat certain foods, such as anything with fat or sugar.
Exercise a lot, even when they are sick.
Vomit or use laxatives or water pills (diuretics) to avoid weight gain.
Develop odd habits about food, like cutting all their food into tiny pieces or chewing every bite a certain number of times.
Become secretive. They may pull away from family and friends, make excuses not to eat around other people, and lie about their eating habits.
As starvation sets in, they start to develop signs of serious problems throughout the body. For instance, they may:
Feel weak, tired, or faint.
Have thinning hair, dry skin, and brittle nails.
Stop having menstrual periods.
Feel cold all the time.
Have low blood pressure and a slow heartbeat.
Have purplish skin color on their arms and legs from poor blood flow.
Have swollen feet and hands.
Grow a layer of baby-fine hair all over their body.

BULIMIA:

Bulimia is a type of eating disorder. People with bulimia will eat a large amount of food in a short time (binge). Then they will do something to get rid of the food (purge). They may vomit, exercise too much, or use medicines like laxatives.

People who have bulimia may binge because food gives them a feeling of comfort. But eating too much makes them feel out of control. After they binge, they feel ashamed, guilty, and afraid of gaining weight. This causes them to purge.

Without treatment, this “binge and purge” cycle can lead to serious, long-term health problems. Acid in the mouth from vomiting can cause tooth decay, gum disease, and loss of tooth enamel. Any type of purging can lead to bone thinning (osteoporosis), kidney damage, heart problems, or even death.

SYMPTONS:

Binge on a regular basis. They eat large amounts of food in a short period of time, often over a couple of hours or less. During a binge, they feel out of control and feel unable to stop eating.
Purge to get rid of the food and avoid weight gain. They may make themselves vomit, exercise very hard or for a long time, or misuse laxatives, enemas, water pills (diuretics), or other medicines.
Base how they feel about themselves on how much they weigh and how they look
Goes to the bathroom right after meals.
Overeats but does not gain weight.
Is secretive about eating, hides food, or will not eat around other people.
Exercises a lot, even when she does not feel well.
Often talks about dieting, weight, and body shape.
Uses laxatives or diuretics often.
Has teeth marks or calluses on the back of her hands or swollen cheeks or jaws. These are caused by making herself vomit.

Blessings.

Watched anime in the morning, afternoon it was like raining cats & dogs._. Goddamn it. But I managed to reach aljunied cresent bball court just in time, getting drench by the rain just a lil(: Baby played well. You go girl:D Haha. Slacked wif beloved one, afterwhich. Head home, I started eating like a goddamn it glutton, the next step.. Whatever shit): Bathed, have a short walk wif mommy at sing post. Walking back home, abruptly a cat was compelling. Mommy & I wondered where it came from, & stunned, it was down in the deep drain. Stupid indonesian guys, ask 'em for help they want money nia. Got one malay guy, say call civil defence but eventually said who wanted to pay 50dlrs. Nia eh._. Help one good deed also got wrong meh ? Animal DO have feelings too rights ? Can't you just effing think ?-.-' Whatever shit, ask mommy go fetch a ladder & I volunteered to go down & rescue the black cat. I was totally shit panic-stricken okay ! Petrified of the darkness in the drain): But neverminds, is a blessing too(: But got myself a very rich cut on my right hand, it bleed speedly. My hand was shivering.. Got home, just bath & get myself a plaster & done(: Wonder if I would get ill tmrw ?:D Haha. Alrights, I'm off to my anime thens. Bye babies(:

Thanks baby for this video.
Maybe, this would help me bear this in mind(:

I FOUND MY HOTPINK HAIRBAND ! YAYNESS.

It was downpouring heavily the whole day, & shooting stars will be out between 4:30am - 5:30am. Perhaps, I'm waking up ard that time. So I pray to god that it will be shown(: Please god. Rot at home the whole day, gotten myself tipsy agn. Vomitted. Forthwith, somehow landed on the bed for like almost half a day. Cause gotten up about 3:30pm already & mommy was cooking dinner already. I love my mommy & daddy:D Hehe. Somehow, is good to say to them I love you once in awhile(: Haha.

I learned fast that jealousy is very hard to overcome.

In many ways, fearless, ignorant and self-servicing.

I had never had any reason to be jealous,

anyone to be jealous of.

A tardy teenager, lost somewhere in the middle.

But it was the beginning of the change.

Maybe for the first time I should sit down,

and took an inventory not only of what and who I wanted to be.

but who and what I couldn't be.

Trees..

Pure, crystal-clear innocence.

They are the best living thing you could ever talk too.

I found this meaningful,

"No story sits by itself. Sometimes stories meet at corners and sometimes they cover one another completely, like stones beneath a river."

Woke up, mommy ask me whether I'll be going out. I replied no, & she asked me if I can help her go bedok buy some pau back home for tmrw's breakfast. Yeaps, morning ate ate ate, spew. Drank martel for no occasions, just one full cup & I'm gotten myself tipsy all over & spew again. LOL. Bath-ed, bus down to bedok. Whoo ~ I'm currently jollity enjoying myself with a cup of lemon lime vodka. My right knee are giving me some pain now, weather is damn cold now a days. I don't know how am I gonna survive monsoon period with an injured knee. Alrights, whatever. Byes(:

A time when I often used to find the strength that kept me going.
The healing was subject to time & patience.

Every ounce of energy I had was gone;
every spark of life inside me was gone.
In that moment I felt I had lost
what little I had left of myself.
I was truly empty-
absent of any emotions, feeling, concern or fear.
The secrets I kept inside was infinite.
Now, my new world had become fragile, translucent.
After all, I was living this life, and I didn't know what to do.
How could I expect that anyone else would ?
Real love is very difficult to understand.
I managed to bury my emotions & my fears even deeper.
My heart was filled with abuse & shame.
There simply wasn't room for anymore hurt.
All the sleepless nights lying in my bed in a state of;
pure fear were just some of the memories.
I now tried to keep in check, to reserve for those tear-stained pages.
Everynight, once back in my bedroom,
I couldn't tell what was real and what wasn't.
I couldn't tell what had been a figment and what had been reality.
A small part of me felt that many of thie things I recalled about
the acid trip were very close to the real feelings I hid deep inside me.
It petrifies me.
I needed to give myself another chance.
I had to find the courage and the strength to forgive myself.
Myself.. another chance.

CONSOLE, be a strong girl okays ?
Don't be like pathetic fragile little girl.
You use to be strong,
the strong CHUA EE ENG I know.
Buck up from where you fall.
Everything will be fine, everything will be okays.
It's temporary, TIME.
Those agony you're suffering, will be a goodbye.
Love you babe !

Sunday, family day(: Rot at home. Laughs, but I totally ate like glutton & spew like some pathetic freak._. for like 5times. I'm currently suffering from headaches, feeling so weak & fatigued. Out for movies tmrw, so stay tune kay(: Nights babies..

Rot at home today, daddy got MIO & free channels(: I'm so elated, thanks daddy ! Haha. I'm feeling lethargic & shag now. Cause I vomitted consecutive 6times a day today._. For goodness shit. Overeat agn:/ LOL. I hope tmrw daddy will be going out ba. Hehe ! I'm flying to my MIO tv already wor. Whee ~ Nights babies(:

I've lost myself.

"Before the point of no return."

My guess was right ! Less then 25ppl in the class._. Goddamn it. I should have come, but anyways. Lesson ended early:D After which, headed to play bball. Whees ~ I had so much jollity. I'm gonna miss all my cliques for 1month++ Shags. Somehow, I'm feeling so lethargic now, but I'm enjoying a cup of black vinegar + honey & titanic piano song(: Yayness. Stay tunes for tmrw's post. I bet I'll be rotting at home ? Whoo ~ I love it. It's monsoon period, the weather is very chilly, nice to sleep huhs. Anyways, thanks baobaofor the pink hairband which I've lost it): & I've got two of 'em:D Muacks. Alrights, see ya babies. Nights.

2 hot females here:D Whoo ~

As reasons clouds my eyes, with splender fading..
"You're here in my heart."

Fatigue as always. Basically, lessons. Recess time, went out for breakfast & we were late for 10mins._. Haha. Accompany baby as she wanted to bath, I like mother liddat:D LOL. Went in school find trenna darling & she's gambling away. I doubt tmrw thr's alot of Sec 3's coming school cause it's friday & it's the last day of extended curr. lessons for us ends at 11:30am, shiok ! Whee ~ Including baby & darling still thinking if they're coming to school tmrw._. Tmd, pangseh:D Back home, watched "Titanic" I tear with anguish for those 2lovers, teared really very hard. & I've been watching it for 2 consecutive days already. Cause it's really appealling to watch(: Ate chesse burger during evening & some fries too + almost 1 full carton of milk, back home ate 2-3bowls of rice + sardines + vegetables + fried char siew, eventually I spew everything out agn-.-' Blahs. Currently, I'm addicted to "My heart will go on" piano version. Alrights, I'm gonna take a short nap now. Please, hopefully tmrw will be a better day..

Agony.
"Love doesn't have to hurt ?"

Today's lesson: Maths, Social Studies, Recess, Maths, Social Studies.
So how's that ? Tedious rights ? Basically, what I enjoy is maths ain't social studies. Whatever shit. Hmmms, had a cup of cereal in the morning. Afternoon, I had 2cups of cereal._. cause I was infuriated by someone with those sucky attitude of his. Goddamn it ! & I nearly spew. Played bball wif cliques, I did poorly. HAHA ! Cause I don't even know the basic of basketball & we were laughing like shit. But neverminds, overall we had jollity. Thanks guys(: Anyways, today didn't met tongshan baby, she's unwell. So she stayed at home, get well soon baby. Went back home, I totally turn worst then a lunatic glutton okays ! I mean like you can't figment how much I ate. I ate like almost 4-5bowls of rice + vegetable + egg wif chinese sauage ( more then half the fried egg ) + steam chicken with wine ( ate almost of the plate ) & I ate more then half of the watermelon, 2packets of wheat biscuit. Look ! How much I've eaten. & in the end, I spew everything out. I'm feeling famished right now-.-' Goodness sake. Nars, I'm not gonna eat agn. I'm totally fatigue, I need some sleeps. Shall update tmrw okays. Nights babies:D

Why must things turn out this way ?
Batch of questions racing through my mind.
Was it my fault ? Are you gonna brush me off aside ?
Sighs, I tried to understand you.
I'm petrified. I don't have the courage..
This is another whole NEW load of shit.
What should I do now ?):

When it rains..
"I'm petrified of standing alone in the rain."

Met steffi at the bus today, walked all the way to school. & we were like talebearing;D Haha. POA lessons, was totally tedious. English lesson I slept for like almost half an hour & I was hypaxonic. Lols, during physics lessons time flies & baby was really nervous for the compeition. Hope she did well today okays(: After school, met tongshan baby & georgina slack slack. Went back home, then came down ubi agn. Some thing disasterous happened outside of school which I don't wna mention here. Tongshan baby cab me to sing post, my knee cap hurts. Anyways, thanks baby;D I think I'm way too heavy, did yoga ytd I think I didn't gave a proper warm-up & now it's hurting like freak._. Whatever shit. Tmrw, I'm walking wif knee guard. I wonder if I age, how would I suffer ? LOL. Okays, shall update tmrw. Byes(:

Omg ! Look at her arms & abs. I want her body !!! Jessica biel:D Hot stuff !

Anyways, in "Jennifer's body" movie; the director wants this figure in this movie. Sort of muscular type ? o.o' But neverminds, megan fox is overall the best:D Whee.

When the clouds overlaying the sun, the atmosphere is cold
it makes me think & reminisce the past with you.

I don't wish to put a fullstop to it.
"Sometimes love just ain't enough."

My health hasn't been improving, just kept on spewing ample of times no matter how much I've eat. I'm so much in agony right now, just hope I can recover from this illness. Anyways, I've taken my delightness drinking black vinegar wif honey;D Yump yump ! You all must be very curious what kinda eerie girl am I rights ? LOL. Trying unique stuffs is way jollity kay(: Blahs. Anyways, fool myself out. Supposingly, lessons start at 9am but I ended up coming at 8am. Damn ! Coincidently, saw trenna & co. So headed to coffeeshop, they have to go back class._. Cause we're different class different timetable. Asshole-.-' So slacked ard wif elicia then back to school la. Alrights, I'm seriously damn fatigue after school, bath-ed. Slept totally like pig^-^ Hehe. Whatever shit, took my dinner. Mircalously, I didn't spew(: Ended up doing yoga. Haha. Alrights, should I head for my bed or random chats in msn ? Anyways, byes babies. Hopefully tmrw will be a better day huhs.

Feel the heart beat.
"You're the melody I'm searching for."

Lessons as usual. Tedious as always ~ Mrs cheng is fucking irritating I'm telling ya._. Argh ! Bitch. During break time, didn't went out. Being a decent girl, teacher instructed us to stay in school during break time. Yeaps, I did kays:D Haha. Praise, anyone ? Haha. Anyways, I eat like glutton again. Even my cliques can't believe how the way I ate, haha ! Ate 3cups of cereal, 3 baos' & 1bite of some yoghurt shit la._. Disgusting, & I spew consecutive 2times in a row back home spew another time._. Thanks to those who really cared for me, I'll take the inititiative to take good care of myself ya. This my promise(: Blahs, after school. Many poisonous happenings which I don't which to mention out here. I think I sprain my wrist because of Georgina Loh Kar Ni ! Nabei, please la. Don't do foolish things next time can anot ? You think by crying & doing all these fucking shit stuff will solve everything meh ? Still will come back ma ! Please la, think twice before doing all this shit stuff kay ? Get it ? Ya, & my right knuckles haven't get to recover this now because of this BITCH. Totally not worth it ! By gones are by gones, I don't wish talk about those filthy past already. Dirty everything._. Whatever shit. Alrights, today pei mommy & daddy watch "THE UNBELIEVEABLE" the horror documentary whiched I mention recently. Goodness me ! Ghost really does exist, scared the freak hella of me alrights)): Goosebumps !
BABY ! When can go out ?! Wah lao)):

I'm contented just by having your presence beside me.
I need you. Tears rolling down my cheeks when you left.
I struggled to find words that described how I felt.
Instead of words getting tangled in my throat,
I found it hard to find words that expressed how much I love you.
I'm trying to evaporate the hurl within me with you ard.
If I die tonight, will you still love me ?
Please, turn back & look at me once more. Will you ?

That rage helped me forgive myself for having been so timid up till then.
I welcomed it, and yet I was afraid of it:
that pure wrath, that building anger & hatred.
I was terrified of the volcano nearing eruption from deep inside me.
I knew that if I ever allowed that volcano to erupt,
If I ever let go, it would injurious: really bad.
A part of me wanted some sort of divine intervention,
yet another part of me wanted confirmation
that my decision to take my life was the right one.
Please, dont hurt me with those ordeal ghost history.

Not meant to be.
"At least NOW you cared."

School was totally tedious. I can't imagine I've gotta withstand for another week._. Shits. During maths, went to computer lab. Baby let me see her history portrait, it was totally excessive shocking how much she has changed. Goodness me ! LOL. SS WAS TOTALLY DRAGGING-.-' Argh ! Whatever shits. After recess, damn "suey" baby & me kena caught by principal because of the skirt. Hehe, we were wearing the old skirt:/ But baby went to change her new skirt back, & I went down wif principal to the office to get a new skirt. Goddamn naggy, noticing me. & she thought I was putting on eyeliner. Nabei & ^ % $ # @ ! Wear specs also can't see properly, BITCH. After school, met wei sian & co. Blahs, whatever shits. At last, slacked wif chu they all(: Had so much jollity ! & we were like dancing away like some lunatic freakos._. LOL. Back home, ditch by the rain like soak chicken-.-' I'm feeling so gloomy right now, fatigue. I'm gonna have a early sleep now. So byes:D

Look at this HOT STUFF; MEGAN FOX ! By the way, she's half-naked.

What priviledge do you have to have friends in school ?
I'm still not very contented. So ?
Let me tell you,
Whatever shit I do, was just a mask.
HELLO ! I'm confronting you, get it ?
You're just pain in the neck, rattle !
Just get a life ! Instead of finding friends to substitute your loneliness.
Just one more bombast nonsense,
BANG BANG ! You're dead:D Whee ~
BITCH, I HATE YOU TO THE FUCK CORE !
* I put BIG BIG give you see:D LOL _l_

This is the whole new load of fucking bullshit !
Some things just held back the tears that I'm enduring.
Why ?! Why till now I've to suffer so much fucking agony ?
HUHS ?! Tell me la.
I may not know what you're doing behind my back.
But all around, I feel so insecure.
Fuck you jerk ! You cared for others,
you cared for your fucking self.
Have you fucking care about me ?!
Just fucking reflect ! I'm fatigue all over.
I'm just like a fucking fool, an idiot waiting for you !
Bastard, ya ! A bitch like me will never understand ! What the fuck you want ?
I'm ill, did you concern about me ?!
Never ! All you do is your fucking FRIENDS, SCHOOL PROJECT, FAMILY !
& all those fucking shit la hor ! LIAR !
LET ME TELL YOU, YOU'RE A JERK !
NOT A JERK, BUT A FUCKING BASTARD JERK !
This is for you _l_ GO DIE !
YOU CAN'T SEE, LET ME MAKE IT BIGGER FOR YOU !
_l_ FUCKING CONTRADICTING BASTARD JERK !

& I THINK I MUST HAVE BEEN RASH BY LOVE TO HAVE FALLEN IN LOVE WITH YOU THIS KINDA FUCKING JERK !

Memories fade to grey.
"Those broken pieces."

Impossible.

Lessons as usual. Out to coffeshop wif Trenna, Qingting co. After school, heart talk wif Wei sian. Slacked wif tongshan baby & trenna:D Life's boring. A thirst for a break out, feeling lethargic. It's time to start revision, perhaps finding a job ?):

Look what you have done.
In the past, you didn't cherish what you have.
It's too late to turn back, turn back time.

Reflect & ask yourself.

Life is just like a game of chess.

Once you make the wrong move,

there's no turning back.

The footsteps.
"Hope is the last thing that I've to feed my weak spirit."

How can I endure ? Hope.

Exhausting day indeed. Suppose to meet trenna darling in the morning, but she was late. Lessons as usual, I nearly knock out during Mdm Ernie's period, but I tired my best to stay awake. Lols. After school, played bball wif fahmi, jia jun, andy & kai siang. Did some humorous stuffs & started laughing away. I think I'm tan._. Lols. Anyways, my body was freaking warm cause play outdoor court. After which, go find Georgina then headed back home(:

Events never change,
when this is all that remains in my life.
Hope is the last thing I have to feed my weak spirit.
But I don't have the courage to forget.
Every & each footsteps that I take,
leaves a misery behind it.

Breathe you in.
"Taking hold, breaking in. I've always been strong."

Dear god..

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Today was rather tedious but jollity(: Hmmms, today was suppose to catch up wif trenna & ian. But we were late, & we were like so "fated" we met at the entrance gate:D Haha. Talk & jokes together:D I feel it's been decades since I've yet to meet 'em._. [ sound exaggerating. ] Blahs. Anyways, 2hours of POA made me stay awake cause it's miss patrina tan. SHE'S BACK:D Yayness. Recess time, headed down to coffeeshop wif trenna all. Abruptly, Mr Lai called me for some unexpected things. Blah blah blah & % $ # @ ! It was smth else that needs to be clarify-.-' LOL. Carried out lessons as usual(: Pei Jolenechu baby as she wanted to shower in school & she's petrified to be ALONE. Haha ! Yeaps, then went out to find Tongshan baby(: She's damn infuriated, but hope she's fine now. Hope tmrw will be a better day, A NEW DAY:D

Taking hold, breaking in.
The pressures on me to circulate.
I'll take it slow, so it reasonates.
My thoughts alone, try to complicate.
And be myself and not impersonate.
I tried so hard to not walk away,
& things don't go my way.
I've always been strong.
Took awhile to see, all the love that's around me.
Through the highs and lows, there's a truth that I know.

My heart, feels so safe with you.

"Oh baby, oh baby !"

Aloha babies:D Haha ! Guess whose back heh ? HANA:D Lols. How was your weekends guys ?(: Great ? Basically, mine was rather average ba. Hmmms, let's start off with my 3days okays:D

30th Oct 2009, Friday

Travelled. Stopped at Malacca for shoppings:D After which, headed to KL & went over to my aunt's place. Tagged along wif my cousins played bowling, cause there are competition, so I stand by incase no one came. & then somehow, I vomitted._. Lols. Somethings wrong wif me. Anyways, reached home. I just went off to bed, I was damn fatigue.

31st Oct 2009, Saturday

Morning, I woke up 5am to do my morning exercise. Then I slept agn, & didn't expect mommy, daddy & me we were late for grandma's death anniversary. & we were like rushing for time while everyone else waited for us._. HAHA ! Whatever. Reached nilai, we had to stand for almost an hour. My leg couldn't take it, but just tahan._. Blahs. After which, we went hotel buffet for our brunch, guess what I ate ? Truck lots of cakes, colesaw, sushi, & one bowl of ice-cream. Alot rights ? Neverminds, I just spew out everything-.-' HAHA ! & then, went for a swim wif my cousin & taekwondo. It's been years since I've learn taekwondo. My hand got injured, due to trenna's chalet that time. Some "bitch" made me totally infuriated & just hurt myself & now, I'm like suffering ! Fuck. Ate dinner at home, I totally ate like glutton okays ! Whatever shit. I'm decomposing my health right now:/ HAHA.

1st Nov 2009, Sunday

Alrights. Breakfast in the morning, you can't figment how much I've eaten okays ! HAHA ! I just ate & ate & ate freaking hell lots. In the car, broke out cold sweat & just spew twice when daddy stopped for a break. Neverminds, ate chocolate somemore. Spew another time, ate mangoes & biscuits spew another round-.-' You cannot imagine how much I've suffer these 3days): Sighs. Whatever shit. After which, watched "The unbelieveable" this story is totally spooky & thrilling. & it's kind of paranormal investigation. Totally scary kay:S Anyone wants to borrow the CD ?:D HAHA ! Alrights. I wna go now(: Bye loves. I WNA MEET TRENNA KOH & TONGSHAN !

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