It requires work & compromise to maintain a good relationship.

Every ounce of energy I had was gone;
every spark of life inside me was gone.
In that moment I felt I had lost
what little I had left of myself.
I was truly empty-
absent of any emotions, feeling, concern or fear.
The secrets I kept inside was infinite.
Now, my new world had become fragile, translucent.
After all, I was living this life, and I didn't know what to do.
How could I expect that anyone else would ?
Real love is very difficult to understand.
I managed to bury my emotions & my fears even deeper.
My heart was filled with abuse & shame.
There simply wasn't room for anymore hurt.
All the sleepless nights lying in my bed in a state of;
pure fear were just some of the memories.
I now tried to keep in check, to reserve for those tear-stained pages.
Everynight, once back in my bedroom,
I couldn't tell what was real and what wasn't.
I couldn't tell what had been a figment and what had been reality.
A small part of me felt that many of thie things I recalled about
the acid trip were very close to the real feelings I hid deep inside me.
It petrifies me.
I needed to give myself another chance.
I had to find the courage and the strength to forgive myself.
Myself.. another chance.

CONSOLE, be a strong girl okays ?
Don't be like pathetic fragile little girl.
You use to be strong,
the strong CHUA EE ENG I know.
Buck up from where you fall.
Everything will be fine, everything will be okays.
It's temporary, TIME.
Those agony you're suffering, will be a goodbye.
Love you babe !

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