It requires work & compromise to maintain a good relationship.

BREAK - DOWN

It was me, I was the filthy human creature to make things adding salt to the wound. I did not blame anyone else for this affliction position. I condemned myself for everything, I'll take the full burden for anyone gets wounded. Up the creek without a peddle, but it just wouldn't work out. Jinx, I am a jinx! I will always be, souls that ended up with me have no good ending but a tearing ending. Love, I was the cause of everything, but I was oblivious of the magnitude of it, the anger within you right now. In my bed, in a state of pure fear were just some of the memories I now tried to keep in check to reserve for those tear-stained pages. When I reread them and really thought about it, I had to force myself to keep control over my emotions. I knew that the more I thought about it, the more I lost my control. It was a battle I could never win. Every time I tired to push those memories out of my mind and into the place in my heart that was now overflowing, I was failing to keep the emotions from surfacing. All those horrible, hurtful memories came back pushing it towards me, I tried to convince myself that I was able to keep them in check, but I never actually could. They were haunting me down, I was stoned out of my mind. I was constantly forcing them away. Sometimes my thoughts came faster than my pen could keep up with. The occasional smile that leaked out my face was genuine, frightening but genuine. I can see you did your utmost best to keep this relationship maintained well enough, but it was me to annihilate everything. I wouldn't seek for your forgiveness, if letting you go & letting me go was the right choice for you.. I will not hesitate, find your true happiness. But, please recognise that I loved you whole heartedly push the envelope of it's love. Either that one fine day, I was with someone.. it will definitely not be the way I loved you or I'll await for you to come back. I still love you, I really do. You may take this as a balderdash, fucking bullshit, go ahead. I had to say what I've already said. I apologise for my unmoralised, unruly, abhorrent behaviour. I know it disgust you. I'm sorry..

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