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Mom's being so indirectly sarcastic towards me yesterday. Nanny came up & was totally dumbfounded the moment she saw me. Sighs. She told Nanny, she doesn't want me anymore. If my nanny is willing to take care of me, my mom authorise my Nanny to take me away. How does it feels like ? I know mom's being fed up with me, but what have I done ? I've already tried my utmost best to be a filial daughter, & I'm like being shoot indirectly. Whatever. I became convinced that I had lost my mind and was truly sick. That pure wrath, that building anger. I was terrified of the volcano nearing eruption from deep inside me. I knew that if I ever allowed that volcano to erupt, if I ever let it go, it would be bad.. real bad. I had to bear the brunt of those awkward situations that is evolving around me. Honestly speaking, I misunderstood love. Sighs. I had witness, I have proof. I can't enforce myself to trust a person time & again when they're constantly breaking your trust with their abhorrent behaviour, in an odd and suspicious actions. But it was all the assumption that I'm intaking & those negative mindset but ironically, everything turns out not the way I've assumed. Everything was just a misunderstanding. If I would want back that moment of time, chances are extremely slim. Sometimes.. I wonder if I should let fate decide everything or perhaps I should just adjusted it on my own ? I'm clamp down with everything I have in my head..